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THE OUTPOURING

5:14pm 
I feel cold all over.
My heart's rhythm changed.
Fear's creeping
Frustration settling.
Hard guy n'all
still soft and tender 
All little nudge or
A lil push of the right button 
And it'll all come crumbling down

Hitting my chest isn't working
Neither is rubbing it
Why am I so cold?
I need to feel my palms again
Yo quiero que mi cuerpo 
vuelva a estar caliente
My blankie isn't doing much
I need help
It's numb but painful
Like the fear of losing someone
Karma's cruel
but this isn't karma.
Cause I've been real
(Atleast,I think so)

I need myself back
I need to let go of every damn emotion
That comes with losing a friend
Valued or not.

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